Pessimist

I'm getting pessimistic. I dunno why. But I jus dun wanna be one. I wanna be optimistic, happy, cheerful, and the list goes on. I'm feeling terrible. Nothing happening around me brings about any happy thoughts. Things just get sadder. I wanna break-free. I once thought that those pessimistic times are all over for me and I've.. out-grown it. Seriously, I'm still stuck. I used to be easily satisfied. I............. dunno wad to say. Perhaps the long-hours of daimoku and gongyo has shown my Karma. Well, if it really is, I would chant more..
and ya, Happy National Day=)