Split personality..

A part of me feel so desperate to shop but the other is so emotional :(
Former because of Chinese New Year that I haven't get any appropriate clothes for the occasion (shoes, accessories, etc -bags are not a worry). Thank my blog song for the latter persona.

Skipped school today and Thursday would be it too. Anyhow will let me attend the last day of school for the semester - Friday.

The first thing I am so gonna buy is that pink/lavender/deep red PSP I have been eyeing for quite some time. iPod classic and phones can wait. Oh wells.

Having been raised in a single parent family for a decade (and counting), it feels really good and happy [only to realize how fortunate they are] to sit in a friend's family's dinner. Just like any normal day for them, in a cozy 3 room flat. Sighs. I can't foresee myself living in a relatively big house in a few months time, having a whole storey to myself, facing only inanimate objects. My mother don't really talk to me that much, less 'bout my dad. He has got his own family with a loving wife and two adorable and lively sons. Sometimes I think I am disregarded. Some may think I am a rebel (based on this paragraph) who seeks all the attention from parents and family but can you imagine not receiving a call/sms/meetup with your Dad for more than a year now. We seldom meet annually. Shocking? No, once a year is considered a burden to him. Mom has her own family too.

Family, I wish I had one. Not like living separately with my mother is not enough (seeing her maybe.. once a week?) but I am afraid and mentally abused by the people living under the same roof as me now. My grandfather hates me and I know it. From his deepest, he thinks I'm evil. My grandmother tells my darkest and most fragile side to my mom ONLY to receive more scoldings and accusations. My younger uncle is a phobia. I don't even dare to speak or behave anything less than a princess in his presence.

That's why I have never ever confided in my family before. Not once. Every once in a while I would ask Darling (my only source of everything - that's how precious he is to me) the difference between me and an orphan?

Having more material goods I guess. Most of them would have been happy, at least.

I'm starting to feel that material goodness sucks. I should start to love them though, because that is the only way I know that I exist.

No urge

Life has been routinely.
Still, I had a life.

Have been listening to bankers analyzing this and that. Kept myself busy thinking which is the better one, to plan time, look for contractors, etc. Ahem, do not mistaken me for my mom. Thanks.

Came here to type something because... I'm lost.
Needed my fingers to type something more constructive than that I was going to. Phew!

Loads of interesting stuff took place. So lazy to say.

One thing I need to remind all of you of 超级星光大道.
Soooooooooooo damnnnnnnnnnn nice (:
Singers worth checking out (cos I love em)
- 林宥嘉
- 杨宗纬
- 林宜融
- 梁文音

Enough of disguise.
I'm sad actually.
Very very sad.
And I think the person who made me like this would call me in 30 min, I guess.
....
..
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LaLa~

See, another brouhaha over the new house issue again~
I really like the house that is superrrrr near to Darling's place, like a 5 min walk only? WOOHOO.
But the owner's asking price is unreasonable, for the house.

Mommy wants the 3 storey one instead -.-''
Now this is the part I irk the most: offer, wait, come back to us, decide.
Good news is that Mommy will bring me to school every morning [after shifting to new place] (:

By the way, luggage is found and mailed back with all the shopping goodies and that spells two pretty dresses, one super nice vest and MORE cosmetics! Tai hao le (: Really pretty stuff.

The endearing 10weeks holidays are coming real soon which means: BangKok!!!
Shop like siao.

I'm recovering from my very scary fever and infection, for those who are concerned (:

I went for SSO's 29th Anniversary Concert last night meeting quite a number of ministers, one of them is SM's wife. But they are all unguarded, like normal human beings squeezing through the crowd to get the booklets and Conrad's cakes. Very... cute performance! HAHA!

I'm hooked on Nodame (: Watched it twice. So sure that I am definitely going back to either Taiwan or Japan to get the comic books - so much cheaper than Singapore. Taxes are unearthly nowadays =/

There's math/computing UT tomorrow. Wish me all the best (:

*P/S: Mommy added me on facebook -.-''' How much tech-savvy can she get?

Update of Taiwan trip cum rushed out RJ (before 2359 what!)

I've totally lost touch of blogging. So, you can click on this to view my rushed out RJ for the Taiwan trip. WHEEHEEHEE~ What a convenient way to blog (:



*P/S: The adjectives are a little exaggerating la, don't mind.

Kenneth Poon Chu Xian

Darling, i love your maturity.
Thank you for transforming me so much also.
Can't use words to describe how much I love you, treasure you..
But I seriously miss you endlessly right now.
Gosh, how much time do we need to have apart.
2 weeks and counting.

Luckily we've been together for 2yrs (:
Nothing, nothing ever can bring us down ((:

i'm so confused.

Safe and sound back home with 11 hours of sleep. Haven't had such rest for a long long time, especially in Taiwan.

- I haven't do the RJs

- TW's a shopping heaven. Fellow band members should know how much I have to KANG2 back to sg. HAH!

- Finally got my YSL perfume.

- More and better band bonding, with unexpected people (: good thing.

- RPWS got a fan club in TW ( well, when people ask for our signatures and pictures and contacting means? )

- Treatment we got was Royal.

- More tamed down

- Too much hanging out with overage ppl. HEH.

- Phobia of internet, ironically.

- 23 deg cel is too hot for me. I'm used to 10 deg cel now, or lower.

- 2 guys.

- Super dry skin.

- more more more and more

- listen to this song: Always on your side by Sheryl Crow and Sting (though my preferred version's by 楊宗緯 and lin yi rong

Lyrics are good enough to keep me mesmerized.

Sheryl Crow - Always On Your Side Lyrics

My yesterdays are all boxed up and neatly put away
But every now and then you come to mind
Cause you were always waiting to be picked to play the game
But when your name was called, you found a place to hide
When you knew that I was always on your side

Well everything was easy then, so sweet and innocent
But your demons and your angels reappeared
Leavin' all the traces of the man you thought you'd be
Leavin' me with no place left to go from here
Leavin' me so many questions all these years

But is there someplace far away, someplace where all is clear
Easy to start over with the ones you hold so dear
Or are you left to wonder, all alone, eternally
This isn't how it's really meant to be
No it isn't how it's really meant to be

Well they say that love is in the air, but never is it clear,
How to pull it close and make it stay
Butterflies are free to fly, and so they fly away
And I'm left to carry on and wonder why
Even through it all, I'm always on your side

But is there someplace far away, someplace where all is clear
Easy to start over with the ones you hold so dear
Or are we left to wonder, all alone, eternally
But is this how it's really meant to be
No is it how it's really meant to be

Well if they say that love is in the air, never is it clear
How to pull it close and make it stay
If butterflies are free to fly, why do they fly away
Leavin' me to carry on and wonder why
Was it you that kept me wondering through this life
When you know that I was always on your side

i miss...

i have too many things on mind, but i can't get it out here.

bad.

pictures later.